As I Understand Blocks to Progress...1

When I first began looking back over my years of rehab, in preparation to write this Post, I remembered what I used to think of as my most shocking discovery. The discovery was that, all along, negative thinking had been my biggest disability. Indeed, the resentment, self pity, fear and the constant feeling of unfairness I felt as I watched other people doing things I too had once taken for granted made my negative thinking a significant block to progressing in my recovery.

However, the shocking fact, at least to me then, was that an even bigger hinderance to my recovery was an unconscious mind set that had possessed me since I'd been old enough to recognize desires or other feelings of discomfort. Although subtle, this mindset had such an insidious impact on my recovery that it not only kept me from progressing, at times it actually pulled me further from my goal of being recovered.

All the doctors agree that my physical injuries are permanent, so why would I speak of being recovered as if recovery were actually possible? To me, being recovered defines a point at which my life has so aligned itself with the universal order of things that the circumstances created by my head injury and paralysis are not seen as limiting factors.

With this in mind, let us explore what I discovered to be an even bigger block to my recovery than even the life sucking power of negative thinking.

(To be continued in my next Post…)